June 25th, 2008

Time: 05:27 pm Current Mood: alone

1. First name: Born Ariel Auerora but Auerora is just fine 2. Age: 24 3. Location: Here~and back again Buffalo and So. Dayton 4. Hometown: Aylmer-on-Catfish Creek, Ontario to Thamesford to Belize then South Dayton 5. Occupation: faking my way thru filing and internet orders & the occasional Dominatrice session 6. Partner: free as a bird 7. Kids: non-breeder 8. Brothers/Sisters: too many-I've lost count since I left but I think there is around 10 of us in existance 9. List the 3-5 biggest things going on in your life: -I'm going to cooking classes at The Culinary Arts Center at Auburn Watson!!!! -My brother, closest in age to me, got accepted into UB's Engineering program so I will see him ALOT -My grandparents are moving back to Belize from Dortmund and my father wants to re-locate the family there as well. I could only hope for such joy. -I bought a Carly Coach bag in black leather and I am STILL going to faint! 10. Parents: Father:Evil Mother:Breeder 11. Who are some of your closest friends?: Trisha who fate has led me to. Such a dear friend. Dana at work who keeps me from snapping. 12. Do you drink/smoke?: whenever I can 13. Tattoos/Piercings: small black "sunrise" on my left shoulder, nipples pierced vert/horiz 14. Pets: siamese cat Diana Luna

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June 17th, 2008

Time: 02:24 pm Current Mood: giggly

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May 30th, 2008

Current Music: Black Bonnet Girls(parody of Fat Bottom Girls ) Subject: Amused Time: 04:18 pm Current Mood: crazy

I know I walk to my own drummer and I tend to be present in the surreal- but I was quite pleasantly surprised when a much older co-worker in the 'coal mine' where I drudge away my days said to another middle-aged drone "That Auerora girl is so weird. She's like Luna Lovegood in my kid's 'Harry Potter' books." and the drone acknowledged: "Ahhhh yesssss...I knew she reminded me of some weird character!" This made me sing outloud as I whizzed by and grabbed all their crappy, little sales information that I have to file everyday. I even skipped!

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September 14th, 2007

Subject: I AM STILL VERY ALIVE Time: 11:25 am Current Mood: crushed

Someone was kind enough to save my life on Tuesday night. I really mean it. I was cold, I was tired, I was beaten, I was broken. It was down pouring freezing rain and the wind was UNREAL. I can't believe a person saw me in all that. I can't believe they actually pulled over and got out of their car. I am too sick, exhausted and emotional right now. I will write more later. I hope you read this because I have no one but the few of you that are out there.

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December 29th, 2006

Subject: 23 "Have You Evers" by the Beloved Azbot!!!! Time: 09:30 pm Current Mood: high

1. Have you ever helped support the economic infrastructure of the ghetto by purchasing illegal substances or weapons? I try to do my best =) 2. Have you ever purchased an overpriced inflatable moose head? No but I stole this ridicculous inflatable 'Rudolph' from my detestable neighbors and stabbed it! 3. Have you ever had sex with a second-degree family member? I am Amish so I'd have to say "yes...several times" 4. Have you ever forgotten where you put your car? I have forgotton where I parked cars borrowed from others 5. Have you ever forgotten where you put your pants/skirt/whatever? all the time at work ;) 6. Have you ever forgotten where you left your purse/wallet? NEVER 7. Have you ever had bloody, ritualistic sex? yes 8. Have you ever had bloody, ritualistic sex on lots of drugs? I encourage it! 9. Have you ever consumed menstrual blood? unintentionally during rough sexxx 10. If yes, were the lights on, or was it a surprise? lights on 11. Have you ever hallucinated all night in a Tijuana motel room? nope, in Boston, Mass though 12. Have you ever eaten unidentified pills? hehehe...all the time 13. Have you ever had sexual contact with your boy/girlfriends' best friend while they were less than 20 feet away? yes'm 14. Have you ever filmed you and your significant other fucking with a camera phone, just so you could watch it over... and over... and over again? yes 15. If so, did you watch it in a public place full of children and their parents? no but his parents and wife were there 16. Ok... was the volume all the way up? hehehe..yes 17. Have you ever been caught backstage, fingering your significant other, after a gig? can't say so 18. Have you ever feigned illness to get out of fucking someone who looked WAY better before you got them home? no but I did sober up on the way home and directed them to home that wasn't mine THEN pretended to "forget" something in the car and disappeared leaving them "somewhere" 19. Have you ever taken pictures of you looking normal and nice just so you could then send them to your mom, and then hit her up for more money for bad things? guilty on all counts 20. Have you ever spent Christmas evening searching for drugs? yes I did this year...I dropped something into a deep couch abyss 21. Have you ever spent Christmas day tying your significant other to a bed and enacting rape fantasies after you agree to try and have nice, slow, vanilla sex (just for a change)? YUMMMM 22. Have you ever felt the urge to kiss a goat? did it...I grew up on a farm with goats, lambs, chickens, cows and other sacrificial animals 23. Jesus, are you still reading this? You're fucked up. yes verrrrry on yummy painkillahs & I LOOOOVE the Azbot!!!!!!!

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October 25th, 2006

Time: 08:59 am

Borrowed from thedevilsrobot 1. google "Halloween" with the year you were born 2. find the most bizarrely frightening costume photo and post it

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October 11th, 2006

Time: 01:56 pm Current Mood: sad

I have not written in a long time for many reasons-most of them being matters of the heart. This weekend was one of the saddest weekends in my entire life as I accompanied my family to the funeral of the Edersole's granddaughter in Nickle Mines. We stood in prayer as a family-as a community-as a whole. I cannot believe such sorrow gave me a sense of "belonging" when all I have been doing is trying to run away and escape as a "me". I could write of how I had fun while in Lancaster-how I lurk in the shadows of my amish-self or what I have become; that what is considered obscene, vain, and forbidden. That, what I choose to embrace with all my heart but I won't. Sorrow and the remants of tradgedy still lives here today in my heart. I am Aerial. I am Auerora. I am nobody-nothing at all- for I am mere dust.

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October 10th, 2006

Time: 07:18 pm

( My Interests Collage! ) Create your own! Originally Written By ga_woo, Hosted and ReWritten by darkman424

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August 21st, 2006

Current Music: Dead Silence & The Stripper Upstairs Current Location: In My Private Hell Time: 08:45 am Current Mood: awake

Haven't written in a while. So much has happened. So much has stayed the same... I can't believe I am sane or am I? I really need to take more than this Ambien to go to sleep & stay asleep for the next 12 hrs. Wish I could sleep straight through to Thursday.

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March 16th, 2006

Subject: Update Time: 02:20 am Current Mood: cheerful

I must take a deep breathe and begin at the beginning..... It has been a terribly long time since I have written in here-mainly because I made the mistake(?) of moving back into my family's home while my father remained abroad. He is still in Germany and will return in April. Every other year or so he returns to his "motherland" to live with his parents and help them out. While he was gone I stayed with my mother and siblings and grew so comfortable there-that I asked if I could stay. It was supposedly a secret but I know that my father really knew that I had returned. So as time has ticked onward; I realize that my time is limited and I need to prepare for a move back into Buffalo or possibly Philadelphia or Lancaster. I actually have been returning to Buffalo (and Rochester) on the weekends to Dom with my Aunt Cyn. She has been "showing me the ropes" and it has been quite profitable for me. Her submissives/slaves have thouroughly enjoyed the presence of a Princess training with their Mistress! I have thought alot about school but I would like to settle down somewhere first. I was also offered my old job back- cocktail waitressing at the strip club or even trying my hat at stripping since "Big Boss Bob" said I grew in the breast department!! I was not offended since I was so thin the last time he saw me!! I have been fattened up on the farm and weigh about 115 on a good day now!! Well I hope all of my friends are well out "there"! I have an awful lot of reading to catch up on here! -Auerora

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December 31st, 2005

Time: 12:05 pm Current Mood: happy

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! I haven't posted in FOREVER! I am at my family house in Dayton for a bit! My father is in Germany until February!!!! YAY ME!!! I actually got to spend Christmas with my mother, brothers, sisters, their children and other family members!!! I have been sleeping like a lamb here and eating like a fat kid alone with all the cake!!! I must weigh 110 lbs again!!!! YAY!!!! I needed it!!! I had no breasts, I swear!!! I cannot wait till 6pm...I will be seeing Alannah then! She is the girl who worked at my family's dairy and introduced (or shall I say seduced!) me to yummy girl sex!!!! I cannot wait to be naked and next to her!!!! I am soooooo bad!!!! Wishing All of You Love and Luck in the Year 2006! -Auerora

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November 1st, 2005

Subject: nothing Time: 02:01 pm Current Mood: sad

just came home from the hospital. my weight is dangerously low....my animia is out of control & i had a hyperglycemic episode because of all of this. and because of all of this....I missed my first Halloween of Freedom :( my family sucks....my father wouldn't even let my mother come and see me & i don't want to talk about it

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October 19th, 2005

Time: 11:40 am Current Mood: sad

Visit to the doctor was not so good. My spleen is enlarged and that is what has been causing my side to feel "full" and pain me a bit. I have to take these gawdawful pills that make my mouth taste like metal/iron and not want to eat more than I already do (or actually don't)! I lost 12 pounds so I now weigh 89-90lbs!!!!! If I loose anymore weight by my next appointment he is going to put me in the hospital. NOOOOOOOOOO!!!! Everything hurt this morning so I was up watching tv when I ran across this movie called 'Witness' from 1985. I have NEVER seen or heard of it since we didn't have cable (or tv!) in the house. It was about a murder within an Amish community and I fell into it badly. I could almost feel and smell everything about it. It made me miss my mother and to some extent even my father. I wish I was home so my mother was there to take care of me. She would make me teas and soups and gingerbread and sing to me like she always did when I was ill. My brothers and sisters would decorate my room with paper chains, masks and pictures that they'd make with crayons, feathers and colored pencils. I wanted to go home. I cried my eyes out till I fell asleep till now.

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October 16th, 2005

Time: 12:01 pm Current Mood: lethargic

To everyone who has wondered just where have I been lately..... I have infectious mono and I am in a sleep coma. Every bone in my body hurts :(

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September 12th, 2005

Current Music: arrrgh! It's Celine from the cubie across mine!!! Time: 08:05 am Current Mood: mischievous

Just a quick update since certain friends :) have pointed out that I don't anymore! My life is very boring as of late. I am still working two jobs and the occasional catering thing on the weekends. I am trying to save as much as I can so when I make a decision to leave-I will be financially secure enough to survive if something like unemployment or a car emergency happens. I got to see Will, twice, over summer. He even stayed at my sister's with me out in a little town called East AURORA of all things!!!! Hahaha! A Town named after ME!!!! It was nice with my family and all but he wants to remain in Boston right now and I do understand even though my heart feels torn apart. I did, however, dye my hair this awesome RED color and I look like a comic book character or animation!!!!! It did up my tips at work though!!!!! Well friends, I have to get started on filing, samples and plotting the demise of my work mate, Paula-The-Rotten-Bitch. She already stuck her nosey, ugly, mean face into my cubicle "just to see if my computer is on work related subjects". I told her sweetly "Oh, I didn't know you were promoted to a supervisor position from sales! Shall i get the department a cake so we can all celebrate your good news??" Which brought snickers from EVERYONE in my department who are just settling down in their "cubies". Hahaha!!! her face is so red right now!!! She gave me a mean glance and I mouthed "FUCK YOU BITCH" while I smiled at her. I made sure NO ONE elese saw it. Glad I watched Serial Mom this past weekend on cable. I think I will call her extension and whisper "PUSSY WILLOW" randomly all day long ;P

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August 8th, 2005

Subject: Thank You Lyghtning! Time: 10:30 pm Current Mood: cheerful

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August 3rd, 2005

Time: 07:23 am Current Mood: listless

It's only 7:23 am and it's 75 out....90 the high today. The NWS says the ozone quality is BAD today for "sensitive groups". I happen to be one of those and my chest feels like it's about to cave in. The a/c in this building doesn't even feel cold....kind of clammy really. Tomorrow the heat index for Western NY will be at 100. I feel like I am in a horrible, environmental sci-fi movie.

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August 1st, 2005

Current Music: The Devil Does Drugs:TKK!!! Subject: I AM STANDING ON MY DESK AND SINGING TO MY CO-WORKERS..... Time: 07:17 pm Current Mood: predatory

And this is what the devil does... Satan! Our lord and master You’re turmed on most of the time on one thing or another GGGet outta here! You liars repent! You know I must be crazy, to show this as my way of living GGGet outta here! My life with the Thrill Kill Kult... What are you trying to do drive me crazy? I can’t be anything except what I am! Ooh whoo, woo-hoo Ooh whoo, awe yeah! You liars repent You know I must be crazy, to show this as my way of living Satan! And this is what the devil does... I’ve grown up on drugs so much, I don’t think I can come down, i really don’t! My Life with the Thrill Kill Kult And everybody thinks I’m high, and I am! Oh how I hate black... You know I must be crazy, to show this as my way of living I find that it’s easy, cutting up the pieces GGGet outta here.... Satan! Would you like to be happy? Well, I mean really happy... My life with the Thrill Kill Kult... Satan! What are you trying to do, drive me crazy? I can’t be anything except what what I am! You liars, repent Oh how I hate black! What are you trying to do, drive me crazy? And this is what the devil does... And everybody thinks I’m high, and I am! *OHHHHH......HOW I WISH I COULD TORTURE "THE PAULA" AT WORK. SOMEDAY I WILL BE WAITING IN THE PARKING LOT!!!! FOR NOW, I AM HAPPILY DAYDREAMING ;)

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July 16th, 2005

Current Music: gentle humming of my airconditioner AND fan! Subject: QUICK UPDATE Time: 01:32 am Current Mood: uncomfortable

I am exhaused from all this muggy weather and I have stopped fighting my thick, unruly hair. Larissa showed me how to make a proper french twist out of it and now I just wash it, condition the shit out of it...leave it in and twist it up. Work was surprisingly dull tonight and I got to go home around 12:30/1 (YAY!) jump in the shower (again!) and now I am waiting for Will to call me at 2. Oh yes. I met someone very nice in Boston. His name is Will(iam). He's 23, 6'1" with black hair and beautiful green eyes. He was born in Ireland and moved to the States when he was 11 and we collided at the aquarium!! i don't want to say too much more. I don't want to jinx this AT ALL :) so i am going to curl up on the couch with my beautiful kitty,Diana, and listen to dreamy music until he calls.

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June 30th, 2005

Current Music: BRITNEY SPEARS:TOXIC (HEY! I work in a gentleman's club!) Subject: LaLaLaLa.....I'm Going on Vacation Time: 12:18 am Current Mood: bouncy

The "Big B" is taking me and Larissa (my nicenice-prittypritty friend from the club) on vacation till Tuesday :) We are going to Boston, MA for the Fourth of July celebration!!!!! It will be nice to sleep in an AIR CONDITIONED hotel room and go swimming all day AND the ambience of Boston by night!!!! I mean...why not!!!!! I don't have to pay for a thing and the "B" just likes to watch ;p Off to pack!!!!!

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